The end

[mustardseed]

Thinking back over our last conversation that turned nasty. One thing he said that he hadn't said before is that I don't inspire him. I'm guessing that's his way of blaming me for his failures. At least what he views as his failures. I'm just curious about how a wife who inspires would behave? I think I always followed his lead or went my own way when he didn't want to lead. We never really had discussions about things. Thkngs just happened and we accepted them. I'm wondering if I am the type of woman who [censored] the ambition out of a man. I wanted security and stability. I think he might have wanted something more exciting. When I met him he was in politics. The uncertainty of that career path made me nervous although I always supported him. He left on his own when we started a family and the person he worked for didn't get re-elected. I think part of him misses that life style. I would hate to be a politicians wife. Maybe that is what was wrong. We both wanted very different things and both thought we were giving the other what they wanted but both ended up feeling unsatisfied. Maybe we really were just completely wrong for each other.