Pink17, you also seem very strong. In the beginning that is all I could think about was what he was doing why was this happening it was crazy, who is this guy? I asked where is the guy I married and he said he is dead. I believe him now.
I do not want him in my life as the guy he is now. He is a downer, no fun. He use to laugh and joke around. If we fought it would be for 2 seconds and then one of us would make a joke. Now he holds on to anger for days. You walk on egg shells when he is around. I felt like I was a tap dancer. LOL. He has told so many lies, hiding money, going places, text messaging other women and then saying he wasn't. Trust is blown.
I think it would take too much to get it back now. He has said so many hurtful things and really just walking out and leaving my son and us to fiend for ourselves just burns me and saying he doesn't even think about me. It pushed me over the edge to where I saw that my life has continued and is better without him in it as I don't have to listen to all his crap.
there are more fish in the sea and quite frankly I life the freedom I have to do as I please and not answer to anyone but myself and my child.
I have gone total dark. I don't even think about him until I come here and then its always just makes me even more determined to detach.
