The short story is there is no R with my W in the near future. We are going to be attending Mediation to try and work out an agreement, as legal fees are extremely high. This may prove very difficult. Her BPDS makes her irrational and difficult to reason with. My W is struggling a lot. Both to make things work and I'm guessing to come to terms with the fact we are indeed S heading towards D. She continues to feel our only option is to D. I haven't suggested alternatives, as I feel she needs to do her own work to come to this realization. Clearly there are alternatives, but I would be returning to the exact same situation if she doesn't start some IC and begin the process for treating her BPDS. Even my kids have done some IC now as a group, which has been great for them.
So now for the details and the parts that have tried to pull me off my course....
My W has stated she likes me now more than in the last few years. She has tried to come on to me, approached me once when she was dropping the kids of and I was in the shower, and she has stated a few times that she regrets what happened and is traumatized by the current situation.
But of course, actions speak louder than words, and she is still in a R with OM. At the last child exchange, OM was there, I walked over to meet him as much as I despise OM, and he turned and walked away from me. I know it shouldn't make me feel good, but I was proud that I faced that situation. I want to meet anyone that wil be spending time with our kids.
My W has said that she doesn't want to be with anyone, but she has no one and that is why she is still with OM, she volunteered this, I did not ask or respond. Definitely not a recipe for a successful R
Enough about my XW........I am doing pretty well. Still do IC monthly, and am working out a lot, doing some GAL and planning a trip. I have set some goals for the next year in both my business and personal fitness goals. Intrinsic motivation has always worked well for me. Mostly I plan on continuing to focus on myself and the kids. I'm worried about the financial implications of a D, but I prefer to have a healthy M rather than straight financial security.
That's all for now, cheers and thanks for reading,
