Zues: For starters as I sit here typing this I am reflecting on how alone I feel without any emotional or physical connection from my W in over 4 months. I imagine that my W felt these feelings quite a bit over the years during my A's. This feeling of hurt and loneliness is enough for me to really think about my actions and the consequences they have had and will have in the future if I continue in this pattern. Also, this week in counseling we indentified my need to stay busy and always be working on something like a project, hobby ect... In the past I have stayed busy chasing other women. This has to change. I need to find a way to channel my energy and time into my son and maybe in the future my W. If I still have free time left over then a productive hobby is a must. In addition, last week I looked at porn and had few females express intrest. I recognized it as an issue immediately, let my accountability partner and mentor know I was struggling and they provided advice and words of encouragement to help me stand strong. Until Jan 2015 I've never had an accountability partner or mentor. I'm quickly learning that this is one of the many important pieces for me to work on me for the long haul.
Last edited by parker7; 04/22/1501:41 PM.
SITCH Years of infidelity by me/H, working on perm change, DEC 2014 ILYBNILWY JAN 2105 OM JAN 2015 W says I plan to move out and file for D April 1, 2015 Dbing April 2015 H-39, W-37, M 18yrs, S-9
