Part 18 - Creeping onward

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Thanks all.

Hi Rd, yes as you say very much actions. Funny enough w and I got into a talk on that (she was saying how actions carry more weight talking about her and MIL) we said its very much least is intention middle is talking most is action and ultimately consistant action (remind anyone of anything we follow here?)

My post was a very condensed version as we spoke in vignettes in the day and for 2 hours or so solid in the evening and obviously we'd spent nearly 10 hours together as the three of us on Monday so she saw my behaviours with s, with her and just being me. Absolutely right though I'm not getting into waffly talks or promises just talking.

Definitely not counting on anything though and although anyone can correct me if Im reading it wrong but we're a way away from piecing yet as w hasnt committed to coming back only to not ruling it out, at least in what she's saying even if her actions (IMHO) lean more toward that being the case.

Indeed s stayed last night and I had a bit of a mad dash to get him up, fed, teeth brushed, ready and to the dentist (which is 1/4 mile from the flat but ~2 miles from here in rush hour traffic). Got there about 2 mins late this morning and met up with w, couldnt stay as I had to get back to start work. I got back home and was just getting online when my phone rang and w said "dentist is off sick" which prompted some humour!

Anyway w and s were going to costa but came over to me instead. Rearranged my diary and s had 45 minutes on lego game while I made w some breakfast and coffee. We had a nice chat, not r today just what she watched on TV while I had s last night (Game of Thrones included), what s's been up to and day to day bits, it was nice sitting at the table in the sunny kitchen (I love the light in this place in the morning). Also gave her information I picked up after a discussion we had the other day, low / no impact workout programmes for dealing with chronic back conditions run at the leisure centre so she can take a look into it.

Anyhoo w and s headed off now for ice skating, she's not too well right now and nervous about a hospital appointment tomorrow (wont go into it but she may be knocked a bit by it, connected to her back) s being dropped off here tomorrow to work through some maths while she goes (friend is taking her, I had offered but she'd rather I looked after s) w may then be coming here if she's a little under the weather afterwards but didnt confirm yet said no problem its entirely up to her, I'll look after s.

So yes, ticking along, keeping the expectations damped down but the hope is bright right now without making me distracted or driving me mad. Mr Fixit still grumbles and wants to "do" things, wants to build her a music server for the flat etc but I help out with things I'd do for a neighbour or for s or because its a nice thing to share.

I get the impression she's torn at the moment between having time alone then wondering what on earth to do with it (her words) and ending up doing not much bar TV and candy crush or moving on with us which creates a set of challenges such as her relationship with her mum.

Ultimately I'm here, I *am* getting on but I'm standing for the marriage and to build a new relationship, a stronger one based on communication and our enjoyment of each other as companions not just friends and what we then build on that going forward. But, yes, w is setting the speed.

Other than that its a lovely (if a little chilly in the shade) day, friend contacted me to say a friend of his (who he did a web site for) had sadly passed away so helped out by taking the site down off the server for him, shopping later for groceries and not sure this evening - maybe just a chill out after several busy ones or maybe a bath

Anyhoo back on with work.

Cheers all.