I think you misunderstand the concept of "as if". You're supposed to act "as if" you're fine and build up your strength physically, mentally, spiritually AND emotionally.
I am really working on this and it seems to help me, even if my WAW and I do not reconcile. I'm beginning to have a more positive attitude!
Also, as Wonka points out, do not leave your house. I think that would be a big mistake. If she wants to separate, don't make it any easier on her. Do your best to open up and let your actions speak .... as I heard someone once put it, "Say little, do much."
Good luck to you my friend.
Bob
Me:55 yrs/W:51 yrs (has MS) M:14 yrs T:15 yrs No children together--3 each from previous marriages Wife Moved Out: 10/19/14 Wife Filed for Divorce: 10/20/14 Divorce Final: 10/21/15