Doing my best to find & keep my center and to keep moving forward. Having the new job definitely helps in so many ways -- keeps me busy, helps me feel stronger and less vulnerable, self-esteem booster, and I know now that I've got some great money coming in on a steady basis as soon as I get my first paycheck.
Whatever is going on with W this week is not fun to watch -- but at least I am now in a place where her moods don't really affect my moods the way they did in the past. An observation -- So far, most of her "nervous breakdown" moments have lasted 1 or 2 days at best... this one has been going on now for about a week and doesn't seem to be letting up. I don't know what that means, and she isn't communicating with me beyond very basic logistics with home or kid stuff -- so I have no clue if the breakdown is the result of things going really badly (worse than previously) at work or the result of some sort of rift between her and OW or extreme stress over the financial mess she is in right now. I guess it doesn't really matter that I don't know the reason for the current nervous breakdown -- whatever the reason, I didn't cause it or break her and therefore I can fix it or her.
All I can do for her -- other than stay out of her way (and under the radar) as much as possible -- is to keep her in my prayers and let God work on her.
My next major task (for me) is the search for a new place to live... There isn't much that is appropriate (and nearby) on the market right now, but the search has already begun and I have some great support from family members with regard to helping with the search as well as some initial financial support to help with furnishing the place. I know that when the time is right -- just like with the job -- God will make this happen the way that it is all supposed to happen. :-)
Me 48, Her 50 (Same-Sex Couple) 3 Children Together: 9.5 years before BD BD: Week of 10/27/14 ExW started EA w OW 9/2014 ExW married OW 12/2015
