Yeah, when I say I've got some self pity, I really mean it in a healthy way. I feel like I'm back to normal mostly. Not many emotional ups and downs, can stayed focused on a task without thinking of the sitch and am pretty comfortable with just myself. These are all things that I struggled with since BD.
I think I see the sitch for what it is now. WW seems to be lost has pushed everyone away and seems to be emotionally declining as time goes by. However, that may be just around me she shows that, but I'm guessing not. She skipped another BFF's daughters birthday party, just another example of how this is not me, that's causing her struggles.
I feel like I'm balanced enough to be comfortable here for some amount of time. I hope at some point she realizes that she needs help. I need to figure out whether to push for a separation agreement or not. I'm going to do what's best for the kids right now understanding that this may be this way for a long time.
M:36 W:37 T: 15 M:11 S6 D5 BD: 8/10/14 IDLY: 8/12/14 S: 8/13/14 (she left, I stayed w/ kids) D Mentioned: 10/15/14 Confronted about OM: 10/15/14 EA: ~4/13 PA: ~10/13 She filed: 8/15 (not final)
