So, about the Guinea Pigs. Again, it's not their fault so I will continue to look after them because it's the right thing to do. I will look after them and all the other animals, because that is part of being responsible. My bills will be paid, even tough he has not paid for the ones that he still owes for. I will feel better because I know I can and do live without him every day. Today is an easy day for me. I'm going to study the motorcycle book so I am well prepared for the M1 test that I want to take tomorrow. Friday night my course starts. I'm excited yet nervous. This is something I really wanted, yet thought was out of my realm of possibilities. I can and will do this!!!! I am a little disappointed with myself. I really wanted to hit the gym this morning and do Aqua Therapy (yoga in water), but got too engrossed in reading "Nuggets of Wisdom" on the board. Lol! I will not beat myself up too much about it. I did have a great workout last night doing Aqua Fitness. Tonight I would like to check out a Meditation group running in my area. Still working on the letting it go thing. Every time I think about my H and how unfair this situation is for me I start to count my blessings, starting with my children and my loving wonderful animals. I do visualize myself in the future, happy with my husband happy as well. We both were so unhappy for the past few years. We had so many things thrown at us right from the beginning. His job loss, difficult relationships with my children and then my illness! We just didn't know how to communicate with each other. I just ran to work more, making myself sick, because I thought money would be the solution. It wasn't! Mind you, if I won the lottery it would make GAL activities so much more fun. I have not seen or talked to my H in 10 days. Had a brief text exchange 3 days ago, then received the brush off ( no response ). The deal was that he was to come by and clean the Guinea cage once a week and visit with the dog. He came once in 3 weeks. He was to arrange with his friends to pick up the rest of his stuff, that was 2 weeks ago. I did pack up everything and put it out in the garage....where it still sits. Lol!! I did e-mail him a screen shot of the Rogers Bill I received yesterday morning. No words or anything attached. I did wonder if that was a mistake. He owes for his cell phone, but I do know that he is pretty much broke right now and one of the things we always argued about was his lack of responsibility in taking care of the bills he was supposed to pay. I don't want to harp on him to pay what he owes, but I don't see why I should pay his bills. Btw, his cell has been switched to his own account now and the outstanding balance is what he owes from when we were still together.
Any thoughts on how to proceed?
NC is hard, but seems the only thing besides GAL that I can do right now.
Last edited by Diana45; 04/21/1504:53 PM.
Di-mond in the rough M-45 H-38 My children S-25 D-23 T 5 M 4 H left April Fools Day 2015
