Going back to the shame part, not feeling good enough, is something I am still working with my IC. He said that some people, like me, are very perfectionists and they are very hard on themselves, like me, and they are probably their worst enemy.
I find it a bit true, my worst criticism comes from myself. I am glad you are taking the time to think over these things. It shows growth and it will just make you a better person then the amazing one you are already.
The whole waiting socks I know. Hope you a busy enough that it does not affect you much (or much more then it is already doing). Sometimes I would like to be some kind of XMen professor and go into your H's toughs to find out what is going on with him.
It really makes you mind reading why he is postponing the D papers, why is he so quite, why he does not communicate. I know we should detach and do not think much of what we can't control, but I can't help thinking that he is very mixed up right now. His toughs are cloudy and he is in the fog.
We share the whole dating ordeal from the guys in this board, it may not be just so easy for our WAHs. O well, we just need to be patient and care for ourselves.
