[BrightFuture]

Hey, NLT. Thanks for the kind words and for giving me some perspective. It will be 3 years since BD in June, but you are right, H’s MLC started before that. Now I know what I was seeing. He was angry at things he was not before, he could not sleep, he as doing and saying some strange stuff.

There is something strange going on between H and this crazy woman. Still not sure what to make out of it. She is definitely a crazy one. But, H is good friends with her H. So, not sure what he is thinking and doing here. If there is anything going on between them, he must be completely out of his mind. Or, his “reasoning” chip is completely broken. If he thinks that he can have this kind of “close” friendship” with her and be friends with her H… IDK what to think anymore…

So, some thoughts and findings…

This woman had been H’s friend for a few years now, so is her H. But, it looks like now this friendship is developing into something different. Maybe. I think this crazy b!tch is having MLC on her own. Both of her kids are now in college, away from home. They were home-schooled. So, she must feel to be empty-nested or something. Whatever… It doesn’t bother me that much. It is actually pretty entertaining. The sad part of it could be that if it goes too far, H will be so screwed. Will he be able to live at the vacation place with all these people? But, I also realize that it is a different culture over there. Like my mutual GF said, it is so redneck.

Some other stuff I found out… H still has sleeping problems. Like he wakes up in the middle of the night and cannot sleep.

He becomes close friends with women and rides on high for a few months. Then it gets old…

Observations… He drove to the state he works. He started driving last Wednesday. I think he might have made the stop at his home city to see his HS friends, but I’m not so sure. At least it was not a party, like he would have previously.

He stopped at another state/city where his other brother lives and met with him, his W, their daughter and her H (who’s wedding he attended last fall.) This made me annoyed a little. He didn’t come through my city and didn’t want to meet or spend time with my son. But he made sure he saw his niece and nephew (her brother.)

He seems to want to be close friends with women. Until it gets old or weird. What is up with that? Is he looking for a mother figure? What is he looking for?

As for me, I’ve been a bit down lately. I feel tired again. I think the info about H seeing his family got me spinning again. I’m still dealing with unpleasant memories. I just need to figure out how to move past that.

I hope all this makes sense. My thoughts are all over the place.