Then my daughter called to sing me 'Heart of Gold' before her bed time......
Burn that song and the thoughts of your D into your memory. Go to that place if you ever go thinking down that path again. Always remember your children need you, even if you are in a bad place now, they still need you in their lives.
Please still speak to someone about what happened so they can help you more. You never want to be in that position again.
Good job on the sobriety, keep moving forward. If you backslide again with that just learn from it and move on, we all make mistakes.
Also, don't focus on saving your marriage right now, focus more on saving yourself. The best way to save your M is to save yourself.
Accept what is, let go of what was, and have faith in what will be
