Hi guys. Thanks for all of your input on this. I see valid points with what everyone said.
Here is the bottom line. It is inappropriate, and it makes me uncomfortable.
And here is what I am learning about me. When I get pissed, I am firm. And people knew where I stood. Yet, when I'm uncomfortable, I don't always let that be known. I make a joke, brush it off. Maybe I'm not used to being uncomfortable... not much stuff makes me feel that way. So, especially if I'm caught off guard, I think I just joke it off, remove myself, and hope it goes away.
Now, I thought I was clear previously by saying no, go home to your wife, not gonna happen, and ignoring other inappropriate things. But, I guess not everyone is that easy. And, was it job who said he has created this image in his mind?!
That seems to be exactly right! Like he has created this scenario in his mind of what he wants and is going with is... not realizing... its not. Maybe I am way off here. Maybe he is just like this with everyone. Either way, it isn't going to continue. And I dont' want to make a bigger deal about it than it is.
It has just been a learning process for me. And i think, more than anything, I am annoyed that someone I considered a friend was so inappropriate knowing what I am dealing with. And what really ticked me off the most was him telling me what to do.
I do think he got the point. He came to see me first thing this morning... I was busy and just said hi and kept doing what I was doing without really looking. Then later, he came into a room he didn't know i was in. And... it was a little awkward. Then he starts in with, "What's your deal with not listening to your voice mail?" He knew before I didn't bc he gave me shid about inbox full. And he was telling me how awesome the message was. I just said I dont' care and I wasn't going to. I saw him a few other times, and it was just weird. Didn't really speak.
If he addresses me alone, I will break it down. Like I said, I may not be good when I'm uncomfortable, but perfectly capable when I'm upset, annoyed, or pissed... I've reached that point.
OK, too much time on that... but... it's a growing pain for me. Plus, interesting to see what I've awoken to.
Now, with that said, there is another person who I believe is reading my posts here. I am super annoyed about it. I have thought it for a very long time, but, like I've said before, didn't put much care or concern into much. I just was better off saying... naw. It's ok. Living in naive ignorance. It was easier.
During a conversation, it came up that I do have a group of people I confide in. And... my name (here) came up... bc we kept coming across it (not online... but while hanging out). It was an honest conversation. Not telling about this, but just in conversation. And, I didn't think too much about it... again... ignorant that it is all out there!
Now, red flags abound.... many other things. But cyber stalking people in my sitch. Frequent drive-bys of people in the sitch. Simply for entertainment purposes. I have been told, randomly, by this person, Oh yeah... blah, blah, blah.... I knew that bc I was bored last night and cyber stalking hww.
I know this person knows stuff they don't tell me. But, also casually throw things in there.
I know! What am I doing??!!
Here's the thing. I know I am putting it all out there, but at the same time... this is very personal. And as a friend, I would expect to have that respected. I never gave the forum, and had even said I don't post anymore (after I said it).
Now, I'm annoyed about it. I feel like you wouldn't eavesdrop on your friend's counseling session or read their diary or medical records or anything like that. So, what's the difference?
Maybe I have turned into a paranoid freak? But, I'm not paranoid, really. I'm just reassessing whom I choose to have in my life. What benefits do I gain.
So, this person, perhaps, is probably going to read this tonight. I get that vibe. Especially after last night's post. But hey... don't bother asking me what's wrong. Now you know.
