Don't pity me. I am doing well, I think, for the most part. I don't want to reconcile. I want to know if this is me just being too sensitive, or if it is actually a sign of a personality disorder, which I guess might mean that even if I was a perfect person it wouldn't have made much difference. And if it is a personality disorder of some sort, and not just regular, solve able type of stuff, I want to know how to avoid choosing so poorly next time.
I often felt emotionally abused. Then I thought maybe I was just too sensitive. Now I hope I would never end up with a man like this again. And I'm sad that my daughter has a father who invalidates her feelings even when he is the one who hurts her. I worry what that is teaching her and how to protect her from damage. My father often does the same thing and it had a negative impact on me.
I want her to be strong enough to say, "you know, dad, I know you didn't mean it, but you hurt me, and i would like you to acknowledge that and respect my feelings instead of dismissing them."
I am thinking of my future, and my daughter.
I had such a great weekend filled with GAL activities and friends and sunshine and laughs.
I had blinders on when I was dating him, when I married him, and up until DB. I want to see him clearly now.
