These seem like dark times, because they are. You are going through a hell like no other. Life is messy. Life is hard. Sometimes, life seems just so damn overwhelming.
But I urge you, to think about your children. Think about your w. Think about your parents, friends, everyone in your life who cares about you.
Taking your life will change them. So deeply. In ways you can't even imagine. I speak from first hand experience. My grandfather committed suicide two years ago. My life hasn't been the same since. Literally, my life and how I approached it/reacted to it? Can be measured mark ably in the day before he ended his life, and the day after. His children? Deeply affected as well. It's not something we will ever get over.
I urge you to call someone and talk to them. Go to the ER and tell them your thoughts. Go to a AA meeting.
Regardless of what's going on -- your LIFE has VALUE. People LOVE YOU, and NEED YOU. You matter.
M:32,H 32 T:10, M5 BD/H Move Out: 9/2014 - extreme anger H Mental Illness Diagnosis: 4/15 Served D Papers: 10/15 Divorced: 11/15
