My best friend just told me that honestly (I guess I get these little gifts when I'm truly over it) that my H seemed to him and his wife to be acting very fake through our wedding. Distant removed, lukewarm, not at all like a man excited to be married, said the right words to the right people, smiled appropriately except when he didn't think the spotlight was on him. And I thought he was maybe just nervous. No, says friend. Think about when there were only four of us in the room and how blank he was when we all saw how messed up the cake was. He was just very far away.
What a fool I've been. I thought we were both happy. Because I was. And he smiled back, and I felt like he looked at me with love.
Mid 30's Psych-abusive M with violent tantrums from XH D 9/15; NC forever on
