Well I'm sorry to hear that. I wasn't feeling instant chemistry either but did feel it when we kissed. Enough at least that I thought we had something that would grow. I definitely felt a wall up last time though and this time I knew it wasn't me. I wasn't being guarded. You asked me to try and I was committed to giving it a shot. I had assumed we would have started where we had left off on our last date.
I'm used to being pursued and men making an effort to impress me on a date. You seemed really keen at the beginning and then you weren't and then you were and then you weren't. This has been a very odd experience for me. Even when we first started chatting online you said lets meet and then disappeared for two weeks. Then messaged again and said sorry let's meet. I laughed it off at the time but it has been a pattern now since our first chats. I honestly was wondering if you were emotionally unavailable or commitment phobic.
I don't feel you wasted my time as seeing you and chatting with you was a choice I made. What I would have appreciated was more honesty. I do not appreciate being left wondering. I don't appreciate the mixed signals and hot and cold behaviour. I am a big girl and will not be heartbroken if the Chemistry is not there for you. I know if I hadn't asked that we would have continued texting ( in a friendly manner) with me wondering when the next date will be and what's up. In my opinion- that's not fair. I was being honest, I made an effort to look nice and make you feel comfortable with me. I deserve and expect the same in return.
Cheers,
Me 52 H 44 T9 M 5 BD 12/11 H split 8/12 OW moved in 12/12 OW gone for good 6/14 We get closer again 9/14 SD 13 Me 4 Grown
Accept what is...let go of what was and have faith in what will be.
