Amen.

Well. I decided yesterday not to go to the friends party bc I was really tired after work and couldn't handle going out again. Guess I'm getting old.

Today I was invited by W's mother. She also invitier W's brother. And of course W. A few mutual friends showed up to my surprise and we had a very pleasant lunch altogether. I drove there with W together too. This morning she was pleasant to me, I made her a compliment for her new dress which she seemed to appreciate. And god damn she looked great in it...
The whole lunch was very easy going. Good to be with everyone. It just seems very hard that I might lose all this, hm. I mean I don't have to. But it'll be a not so important part of my life one day. Or maybe it will, who knows.
I just enjoyed it and I'm not affected by this pleasant birthday lunch but every time these meetings and closer interactions I just see how this actually has a good chance to work. We just are a great match, period. W just doesn't see it right now. But oh well, not going to get hung up on this...it's no new knowledge anyway wink plus I still don't believe it's ever going to happen...

Thanks for listening.

Last edited by Complex; 04/19/15 10:32 PM.
Me 32 (German) Wife 28
T 3yrs M 2yrs
Moved to US for W
No kids
BD 6/2014
In house separation
Confirmed EA 1/2015
(ongoing since BD)
OM not ready
Real D talk started 1/27/15