I get it now. Campus life, job related accommodation tied to H job. Tough one Msd.
You really need peace and quiet. A space of your own to grieve and relax. I know the feeling. I would love to reach across the miles and go for a lovely long walk in the fresh air and discuss nothing but the breeze with you.
I know you are seeing L tomorrow so that is another step in the right direction.
Peace and quiet, rest and tomorrow will come. H deserves nothing from you.
V
Freedom is just another word for nothing left to loose. V 64, WAW