Edam, thats a problem if there are too many cheese comments made in passendal remarks, feta brie caerphilly they dont make you feel hungry.
Stilton a little cheese never hurts especially with a nice glass of wiiiiineeee....
Sounding good Gg, keep kicking up those heels and having some fun, set those gossips ablaze! Any exercise you'd enjoy (apart from the work you do for work-work and tasks on the farm - which seem exhausting enough to me!)
Any pools around for swimming or cycling etc you'd enjoy?
M:44, W:46, S:10 M 13 years, T 15 BD:23/7/2014 W/S Moved to MIL: 23/7/2014 My new place: 21/11/2014 W/S back to flat 22/11/2014 W coming closer, talking 4/2015 Piecing 5/2015 Moving in again 6/2015
So Monday I get up do a few house thing, have about 3 phone calls then head out. Between morning and finish of wood carting someone replaced the young chick I got up as with a much older crone who could hardly walk straight.
Only did about an hour an a half! Sish Then been on the tougher shift at work. I have been exhausted. Work bestie isn't there and so not on that shift, so no lighter mood. The other person is all over the place emotionally, she exhausts me.
An example, you try to rough out the plan of attack, she's like don't talk about it do it. The comes over and barges in trying to fix and change what you were doing.
So you then ask for plan get brushed of cycle repeats. Also roster got changed without notice. So I arrived and did extra time like Instead of 8 hours long enough. I ended up doing 9. This shift provides little contact with the blokes either. So it's dull, and I feel like some back sliding on behaivours.
Not being proactive, just wanting to get on needing to rush and short cut.
I however might now have help for the wood carting and it won't be sooooo hard. So one solution.
So will be going out Friday, but will be shorter, due to late shift.
M 46 h54 Both married before T 11y Bd 2/14 I must see where ow leads! Ms 18 hs 26
It's a bit showery, but we are going out to start soon. Got to run an get saw and ute ready. Not sure if I can striaghen the bend in the tray to put sides on but large hammer here I come.
Big cold snap coming and weather warnings. Went to the local last night and we had a huge dinner! Felt a bit sick this morning tbh.
I think too much heavy food, to late in the night. Next Friday we will be earlier. So that might help.
Dinner tomorrow then work Monday. It's amazing what a year of almost total nc can do. Well mediation doesn't really count right? Lol
L emailed about a week ago and said she was working on my stuff, but I'm annoyed she demanded payment within one day of sending a bill technically wasn't due as it was a 7-14 day account. That was feb! And nothing from her since.
M 46 h54 Both married before T 11y Bd 2/14 I must see where ow leads! Ms 18 hs 26
Right od has inspired an update, but a different kind.
Today is almost a year of nc to very lc.
A year ago today I was throwing up crying most days and today was a really bad day for that. I was blaming me 100% for everything that exploded the m.
I was taking ads. If I missed one I was an emotional mess unable to function. I got mad when h ignored my text in an emgerency sitch. I ended the night bogged in a ditch pouring rain and unable to go home while s16 was home alone in a flood.
It was the mad angry moment where I got up literally from the mental ditch as well as getting out of the physical ditch. That single event, showed me even neighbours treated me with more repect and human dignity than my h. They didn't heap abuse on me for getting stuck, for an event of nature and of being unable to solve my issue without help.
It's the point at which we, s16 and me started doing those deal breaker things that h wouldnt allow. We started living and doing what we wanted another dog, why hell yes.
We got 2. Want to save the poor lambie and feed him with a bottle why not. Want to go out with mates, sure that's ok. Want purple hair why not? Want short hair, then ok. Wear make up hell yeah!
Now tonight I went out and payed for dinner for those who have done small favours for me for things I just don't have the skills to do. These folks give without the expectation of being returned money or some other expectation. most have helped me in some big way to me but a small way to them.
This year life is happier s17 isn't living here, but he is old enough to to be out (with his welfare dad) living his choices.
Recently my Disires have come back. I was very much into the ml side of all r. The fact as nilla said the worse the abuse got the lower my disire got. To the point it has been gone for a year. I have been trying to get back Into the dating scene with little success.
Things are looking up, tho one of my mates handed me a number of a bloke to meet. Althought he doesn't tick the have a life and job box. Haven't met him yet, so am hesitating. So dating is time, to meet the right person.
The separation + I have more $, less stress, less pressure to do "duty" type obligations. I have lost weight. I have a better outlook due to less pressure. Often I'm told I'm too up too happy. I truely feel light. I had a wart for 4 years and it healed when I made the decisions to real start to do what needs to be done to end the r legally. Well settlement. My strange liver pains have gone as well. My sleep is still a bit all over at times, but that's often down to me being s night owl. I do sleep better than with h, he often seemed to be disturbed and it rubbed off on me.
I hope this give those of you at the start hope, of where you can be in a year from now. Keep looking forward, get mad get angry but use it to propel you forward not for revenge. It's to let you know where you need to do work and where change needs to occur.
So happy year 2 in gg world.
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M 46 h54 Both married before T 11y Bd 2/14 I must see where ow leads! Ms 18 hs 26
