The self-amusement? Not such a big deal - you have a relationship with your w still. That's between you two.
The wanting to get at her other person for your self-gratification? Hoping that they'd be uncomfortable seeing her not paying attention to them?
That's like setting yourself on fire hoping to get smoke in her eyes.
It's been years for me, Wet. Once I realized I wasn't going to have anything to do with her and made it MY choice. As it turns out, I do have some interaction because we have kids together. But I keep it minimal and business only at this point.
And no, it wasn't always like that. I'm just not cutting any slack until you at least see the bigger picture of what you're doing and the ineffectiveness and degradation (to you) that occurs on the path you're currently taking.
In the scheme of things? Doesn't really matter to her or the situation. To you? It matters.
AJ
"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter" MLK Put the glass down... "Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."
