Saw step kids tonight for first time since I moved. They had a lot to say about situation. I ate it up and now I feel like cr@p knowing what I know. I think in tbe morning I will apologize for not being more of an adult. I will tell them that in tbe future if they are hurt or upset about anything their father does they can certainly talk to me. If not I would rather not know any details about their father.

Here are some of the things swimming in my head.

- there are photos around house of stbxh (actually not so soon as there is a year wait and we gave only been officially separated 3 weeks)... family photos of him, OW and OW daughter.

-OW daughter (11) calls my future exh "daddy". She told the kids she was like their sister because their dad was dating her mom. Ss 16 asked him if he was no admitting he cheated. He said no. That the girl was mistaken. He is just good friends and roommate with her mom.

An aside on that one... he still is saying he is gay and they are roommate. I will eat my word 100X over if I ever find out that is true. But if it is the lie I think it is (based on the continously growing pile if evidence) how can someone lie so blatantly for so long. What does he get from it.

-OW daughter told boys she hates me because I treat s badly. (where do we think she heard that?)

-future exh is apparently not drinking at all because he is just so happy.

-while we struggled for years financially and future exh worked the bare minimum for the past year and drank away a chunk of his paycheck he now apparently is working regularly and,buying himself and his new family tons of stuff. (Giving me a miniscule child support check based on his previous years income)

-future exh wants OW to bring s back to me in the mornings when s sleeps over midweek (1 night s week when I work late). He wanted her to take s to school but I stood strong against that. I said a random person was not getting involved at school. He said she wasn't a random person. I asked him to clarify that since he was claiming she was just a roommate. He hung up on me.


I just feel like I should be less affected by all this but it is like opening wounds over and over.

Me 44 H 42
M 10 T 12 (at time of BD)
Ss 20 16
S11 (special needs)

BD 9/13 H "unhappy for years" moves to seperate bedroom
10/13 EA/PA confirmed but denied
S and I move out 3/15