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[Closer2]

Just an update and doing some journaling. Had a great time with D4 and S9 at the aquarium today. My daughter is scared to death of sharks, but she enjoyed seeing them at the aquarium. We had a great time and can't wait to go back.

I sent the STBX a text today. Nothing crazy. I told her we need to talk about the getting the house sold and child care. I know I shouldn't text her, but she needs to help me with this house. I need her to meet with the realtor during the week, be here while the roofer and flooring guys do their work. I can take off some work, but not enough.

She replied that she has not been able to calm down since yesterday and has had a mini-breakdown. She is willing to help and will be at the house in the AM to watch D4, work on staging, repairs, pick up S9, and leave when I get home.

She may not be pleased that I packed all her remaining clothing for her. Maybe she'll be happy that she doesn't have to, who knows.

I'm going to do my best to treat this as a business deal. As if I'm flipping a house with a business partner. I know I have to detach more. In the past, she would pull me back with a look, a hug, or brushing against me. She would always lay on my chest and talk to me at night. That made it near impossible. AT least that will not be able to happen now.

Since Friday, I feel different. Before Friday, I thought I could see a shadow of the girl I feel in love with. I thought she was confused and torn between me and OM. I was stupid. After Friday, I know I can't believe a word she says. I know she doesn't feel anything for me. Boundaries are a joke to her.

If she helps me get the house sold..great. If she does not, I'll figure something out. I can do this. I can treat her like a neighbor.

I was reading in another thread. Sandi2 posted that the STBX needs to be dumped. She's already dumped me, but I feel like I'm dumping her.