Getting back to me

[mustardseed]

So she came to pick up her d. She must have texted him when she got here because I saw her pull up and called upstairs to let her D know, but he was already upstairs getting the girls. Then he ran out to her car to chat. It took all of my self control to not make a snide comment. I waved, then went back in the house. I looked out the window (not good I know) and she pointed at me, then he went to the back of the car to make a fuss over her son like he always does. When her son was a baby she took him on a school overnight trip with her because she was breastfeeding so she, H, and her s drove up together. I thought it was great because it meant that he came home a night earlier. i really thought he was doing it for me, so that he wasn't away so long. Now I question everything. I highly doubt he would have an A with a woman who just gave birth to another man's son, but I always think that that might have been the moment where their friendship shifted from friendly coworkers, to emotionally connected, inappropriate friends. When he came back from the trip he told me that her S was hungry and he joked with her about just feeding him in front of him. He's a father and seen it before. That bothered me at the time, but I figured since he was telling me it must be innocent. So I let it go. But that keeps popping into my head now and again. That was 5 years ago.

Anyway, it took all of my self restraint to not make a comment. I didn't say anything. My heart was racing. I was trembling. I wanted to hit something really hard (her big ass head would have been nice). But I didn't say or do anything. Now he is dropping s13 off at a bar mitzvah. I wonder if he is going to come home or if he has plans for after drop off. A friend's mother is bringing S home. Part of me hopes that he just doesn't come home so that I don't feel tempted to pick.