I'm reading Daring Greatly by Brene Brown at the moment, and your comments of feeling insufficient, inadequate and undeserving of love resonated. Underdog recommended Brene Brown's TED talks on vulnerability and shame (thanks Underdog if you are reading this) and they are powerful.

I've just been reading about perfectionism as a mask for shame...unless I keep my 'perfect' mask in place, I may be found wanting...and so on..

Just mentioning in case her stuff is of interest. She has written 5 or 6 books...

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We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus