Today W was friendly, but distant. Most of the times she tried to avoid my presence, sometimes she came to me and started a polite conversation (weather, the garden, the meat for the bbq). She seems to be quiet depressed about the situation. Her posture is the posture of a burdened person. No energy.
Emotional detachment takes more energy in this situation and I have to take care, that I spend my time with good nutrition and plenty of sleep, exercise and quality time with the kids. And I have to continue with my changes GAL!!, work on my self-worth, take responsibilities for the family and get a better paid job. That seems to be important. If I fall back into my old patterns, she would give up on me for good.
So keep your fingers crossed for me. It helps me to know, that somewhere out there are people who know about my journey. Thank you for your ideas, the encouragement. I really appreciate that.
Me 46 W 45 S16 D14 S10 M 20 yrs in June T22 12/14 sleeping in different rooms 01/07/15 she said she wants a separation 02/26/15 I moved out
