Now that I've typed that I feel better. I see that it's still part of me holding on to resentment, hoping that she gets hurt for the hurts she's caused me...and still keeping score of who's "right and wrong", feeling that she's wrong and hoping that she'll realize her "mistake" someday.

After I typed that it helped me...I am letting go of my resentment a lot, but it's not easy. Catching myself holding these grudges is good, because it will lead me to moving on. In all reality I hope she DOESN'T regret leaving me, and that she goes on and has a fulfilling life. She deserves it, and I want her to find peace. I wish it could've been different, but not enough for her to suffer for it.

Thanks for talking about this. Anyone else have similar feelings?

Me:38 XW:38
T:11 years M:8 years
Kids: S14, D11, D7
BD/Move out day: 6/17/14, D final Dec 15