The rollercoaster is real. I feel as though I have PTSD - from the day she dropped the bomb that she wanted to move out, I have never experienced this much stress hormone flowing through my veins ever in my life. It's like the "fight or flight" response was turned on two months ago full blast and no relief no matter how involved I get in other projects / doings in my life. Not to say there aren't good moments - there are plenty.
I just can't believe how overwhelming the sadness can be. It comes out of nowhere with the momentum of a freight train, set off by a song on the radio or a memory in passing, when waking up from a dream in the middle of the night, or sometimes for no apparent reason at all.
And then I am back to GAL activities (I love the shooting sports, climbing, woodworking, home improvement projects, and entertaining in my home). I feel better and am getting stronger but boy the highs they are high and the lows they are low.
Last edited by aNewGuy; 04/18/1501:55 PM.
Me 39 waw(ww) 26 M 5 years ILYBINILWY No children, miscarriage 3/14 EA 11/2015, confirmed 4/2015, pa? Separated 2/2015 She files D 4/15/15 I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me
