hold on! - 9

[u-turn]

I do believe that I am working at self improvement. I think that prior to bd that she thought that I relied on her too much for my own hapiness - that I did too much for her. I am working on my self confidence.

I have not been happy in general (maybe because I still feel that I lost the things that I have valued the most in life) - but by circumstances I do not rely on her for anything. I do believe she doesn't like the 180. She wants to feel wanted (don't we all?). But I am not giving that to her.

GAL. I stay busy with my responsibilities. But to say that I am doing things out of my comfort zone and meeting new people and having fun - I am probably more than a little light in this department.

I still look at my life with her and cannot put a definative pin on a chart to say this is where it went wrong. I still think that things were up and down, but we corrected major problems as they came about. (I don't know if W would say that was the case - if I were to ask her).