You are an amazing woman, love you with my heart. I agree with all your statements about the A and how it involves a person.
I think sometimes that my H's least issues is this OW. She is pretty much what I was when he met me. I had my son, was alone, working full time, living in another country, I even smoked. All the same with this OW. So, it makes me think that he is repeating the story. There should be a reason for this, I do not believe it is just coincidence.
My H has a lot of problems from his childhood, he was abandoned and betrayed too many times. His life story is very sad, very lonely, very painful. He is too mixed up, and his confusion is obvious even if he does not say a thing.
To tell the truth I hope H will find happiness even if it is not beside me. He is my children's father and I wish him the best. I know there will always be a part of me that will love him forever, somewhere in my heart there will be a little box with his name on it.
H wrote tonight asking what time I want him to come to the house tomorrow. He is supposed to come and stay over night so I can go out with my friends. Not really, I want to have some time alone for a change. H does not need to know what I am doing.
I think it will be good for us. That he will see I am moving on too and does not have any hope for his return anymore. I said all what I need him to know already. He did not changed his mind, then I have non other choice but accept my fate.
Let's see where life will take me, for now H needs to see that I am done, I want it no more. It will be hard to do, but I start on this road and will keep walking my path.
V, thanks so much for your words, it always makes me think a lot. It question, gives me new perspectives, hope, direction, ideas, strength... thanks for helping me.
*** Today, during the parenting class, I met some women that have been victims of domestic violence, abuse. It was shocking, sadness invade the room when they told us a little bit what they are enduring. I felt the pain in each word they said.
Hope V is being her best friend and keeping the peace in and out herself.
