You are afraid because you have not detached from your W. You have become dependent on her and so you are at the whim of her emotions.
It's okay to be afraid. No one thinks any less of you for it. But you need to detach yourself from her and start your NG recovery.
Wow, this an eye opener for me. It fits perfectly into the things I have been pondering on the last weeks: #1 "We are defined by our fears".
#2 "Stop helping people to oppress you"
I always have been waiting for the moment, when I would not feel the fear. You are right. I guess it would be some kind of a mental disease not to be afraid of dangerous stuff. Wow, I will work with this in the following days.
Thank you
Me 46 W 45 S16 D14 S10 M 20 yrs in June T22 12/14 sleeping in different rooms 01/07/15 she said she wants a separation 02/26/15 I moved out
