" What I don't get is how someone I spoke to every day for almost 5 years can just so easily walk away and not want to talk to me at all? That really bothers me."
Hi Diana, if you let yourself grab on to ^^^^^^^^^^ question, you will surely drive yourself insane. that question is not conducive to getting you back to your gorgeous wonderful self!
The very plain reality is, you don't get an answer to that question. At least not right now.
There are better different questions that are more loving and kind to you. One of mine is what can I do right now to feel better? Sometimes it is just to feel sad, sometimes it's chocolate, sometimes it is rereading a chapter from DR, and sometimes it's finding a post on here that I can connect with. I guess in DB it is GAL.
I recently attended a mental toughness workshop, and the key messages were, get comfortable with the uncomfortable and thoughts change feelings, different better thought, different better feeling. The effort it takes me to raise my mood at the moment feels enormous at times, but its part of moving closer to the one i love or closer to the one I'm supposed to be with. I try to keep focussed on thoughts and actions that will bring me closer to what I want.
I have very lovely friend who so kindly quotes me back to myself when I get stuck in life (I'm so good with the sage advice to others). But what I have often said to friends is "this bit was only ever going to be a sh*t time, accept it, you don't have to like it, but when you do you're half way to where you wanna be) I can't believe how precious I can be but its good advice.
Anyway feel free to ignore that above, just know I'm here for you as are others. We are cheering for ya!
