I went to see my Psychologist today to check in and review the latest episode in my life. She said, in regards to AM, "Speaking as a mental health professional...I think she's nuts" she then said "C'mon, you're thinking that too, right?" and I said "Absolutely!". It's funny, my friend Agnes was a psychiatric nurse for a few years and she said to me last night "I think she's a little nuts". Pastor said to me on Wednesday "do you think she might have some mental health issues?" Well, at least it's not just me thinking the cheese is not firmly planted on her cracker...speaking as a mental health professional, of course lol. I also told her I was trying to process this and figure out how I could have done this better. I said maybe if I had been more upfront about things that would have helped. She said "Whatis, you liked her. Do you really think that she would have been honest with you anyway? I doubt it. You recognized there was something wrong, you backed off, you set boundaries with her and when the lies came to light you treated her respectfully and actually lovingly. You handled this as well as any man could have and probably much better than most" She said she realized that in my faith we consider each other family and I did her that service. I told her "I actually texted her and told her that if she was staying away from church because of me, not to. I told her that I would be fine, that the world had not ended and that I needed distance from her right now. I said that this is her church too and she is part of our family. I told her she didn't need to reply but I asked her to think about what I've said" My Pastor said he thought it would be ok for me to do that. I'd said to Pastor "she didn't crucify Christ...she just lied to me and I can work through that" Sure, it would be easier for me if she didn't come back but she's my sister in Christ and we need our church and our fellowship. I said I couldn't be her friend but I saw her as part of our family and she should be here. Weird maybe, but Pastor understood. At one point I said to Psychologist that I hoped she realized that secrets can now be harmful and Psych. said "you don't really think she's processing this do you? I think she's just cut and run and will probably repeat it somewhere else" I think she's right but time will tell. Anyway, that's that for now.
