Lou, I can't believe you flooded the place again! LOL! One thing is for certain...the floors are going to be super clean! I have noticed over the years that when the lbs are living on their own, they tend to have a lot of things happen in their lives at the beginning, almost like karma is hitting them squarely between the eyes...but, I now think it's a sign to help us keep the focus on ourselves and not on the mlcers.
I'm sorry that the work isn't permanent, but every little bit of money earned helps you w/the rent. You'll get the furniture you need in time. Right now, I think you aren't sure as to whether this is where you want to live or not.
As for the psychic, they sure don't look like the people we see in movies or on TV. Sounds like her predictions have been spot on w/you and your situation. It will be interesting to see how the rest of this year unfolds w/her predictions in mind.
As for your friend who has proclaimed his undying love for you, you are going to have to handle him carefully. You will need to explain that you are not in a place whereby you can even think about another relationship and that you need to heal from what has transpired. Do not use the word "yet" or he'll think he has a chance w/you. If he's as love struck as he proclaims any words that may "promise" something further down the line will be taken as he has a chance w/you. The poor bloke!
Chocolate cake does solve problems. LOL!
Take care.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
I have written a response to my admirer,I have tried to be tactful. I have not sent it yet, I can't bring myself to - it's not what I expected to have to write to anyone!
Other news - carpet is drying out, smells a bit so will have to treat it with a deodoriser.
Spoke to s21 today, he said everything is much better between him and h, they have been doing more stuff together and a few days ago they went to the car auctions and got s21 a car. Sounds like h may have actually listened to me wow. S21 also said things better in the house now, thinks his d has talked to ow about backing off. So all quiet in their corner again.... for now lol.
S18 has talked about leaving college, says it's boring and he is not learning anything - this is typical of him. I have said he can leave if he finds full time work (which is not easy here so am hoping that will stem the leaving college for a while) it's a tactical game!!
Honestly – who said this gets better, that life gets better?
So, got another job rejection email today, that’s 4 this week. This one was for factory production line – it was my desperation application so really feeling like “seriously, am I unemployable?”
I look back at how my life was this time last year – safe and secure, husband, lovely home, no worries and now ……….
On a good note – s21 has moved off h driveway and into his own place. He is a happy b now. Both s are fine again, which was the aim of my premature return.
Both s tell me their relationship with h is better; they stick to safe subjects and are still hoping that his relationship ends; h hinted to sx18 that she was rushed into and not a keeper, however it does not look like she is going anywhere and h is going to try and juggle everyone; perhaps me coming back has made things easier for him.
I am fed up of this - feeling like I have this permanent weight on my chest. The worry of the job hunt, the sadness of losing my m, the confusion of what I want, the lack of direction and drive to feel positive about the future.
Thanks for being here for me and letting me ramble. Its my safe place :o)
Lou, I'm sorry about the job rejection...but maybe it wasn't the right job for you. Keep applying for any and all positions. I know it's discouraging, but I also know you will find one very soon because you are a strong, independent and determined woman.
I'm also glad to read that your son is no longer living at your h's place. Your sons are going to find that the less they deal w/his drama, the better off they will be and stick to safe subjects.
Hang in there!
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
Yes. Lou, I know you are ready for something job wise and it IS discouraging when it doesn't happen. However, Job is right. There is a reason you didn't get this gig- it wasn't right for you. Keep at it and something will turn up for you.
You are a strong, determined lady and something good is just around the corner. Hang in there!!!
3 kids BD 12/15/13 (IDKIILY. ) Rope dropped Cirque du Soleil style D final 9-9-14 "Some people are born on 3rd base and go through life thinking they hit a triple." Barry Switzer
Hey Lou, I’m sure that you will find a perfect job. Sometimes it takes time. I was without a job for entire year before I found one. I was a mess. But it worked out at the end, and now I have a great job that I think is a good fit for me. I met a lot of people I became friends with.
I know who you feel, I’ve been there. Don’t give up. The things will get better.
I also think that part of you being down is that the news about possible trouble in paradise gave you some hope. And now it looks like everything is the same and your h and ow are still together. You don’t really know what is going on over there. It might look good, but who knows. Give it some more time. I bet that this R is not going to last. Or, your h will be miserable. You just cannot replace a good thing with the bad thing and be happy about it.
Hang in there. (((((hugs)))))
M:50 H:52 S28 (my S from previous marriage) M:17 + 3 BD: 06/12 S: 06/12 - H works in another state
Thank you job, Georgiabelle and Bright, I know something will come along eventually. Unfortunately waiting for the perfect job is not an option, I have to find something, anything, to get some money coming in; I dont have many more weeks before the pot will be empty. Once I have got a wage coming in, then I will have the breathing space to find something I really want. The Bank of Mum is temporarily closed now both s are fine again and until I get a regular income.
Originally Posted By: BrightFuture
I also think that part of you being down is that the news about possible trouble in paradise gave you some hope. And now it looks like everything is the same and your h and ow are still together. You don’t really know what is going on over there. It might look good, but who knows. Give it some more time. I bet that this R is not going to last. Or, your h will be miserable. You just cannot replace a good thing with the bad thing and be happy about it.
Bright: you are right, I did start to have hope; hope that he was beginning to come to his senses and the knowledge that he was unhappy, as why should he be happy when he has caused my unhappiness. I agree, no one knows what is going on his head and behind closed doors. I also know I should stop myself from being drawn in everytime I hear things are not good with him.
I am happy that s21 has his own place, he is a young man and should be out having fun and enjoying his life, not stuck in the middle of his d and g/f.
Coming back here has been a big challenge and ask of myself i know, its giving myself time - patience has never been a strong point of mine - I am trying to put the focus back on me now my sx2 are fine again. Back to living day by day, being thankful for bedtime and few hours rest for the brain.
Thanks for all your comments and support - (((hugs)))
Hang in there Lou. I know the right job will come for you at the right time. Like you said, being open to things and being positive is the kind of energy that attracts good things. It is easier to say but you are going to get through this. I have no doubt at all.
Sending you all my best. {{{hugs}}}
M:25 years at BD w/ 2 daughters BD: 5/14 Separated 6/14 - H moved cross country w/OW D Final 9/17
“I can be changed by what happens to me. But I refuse to be reduced by it.” ― Maya Angelou
I am really struggling with writing cover letters - I can see that mine are probably letting me down. Its hard because I can't seem to find a way of selling myself when I generally don't have the skills and experience that they are looking for; I am having to sell myself in the hope that potential employers will give me a chance.
Having been a stay at home mum for 21yrs I am really finding this hard going. I find out about the company, I address it to a named person (I email and ask if its not included in the advert), but its the explaining why I want the position and what I can bring to it that I am struggling with - I have been told not to put in cheesy things regarding skills motherhood has taught me - like negotiating with toddlers lol, so any ideas would be really appreciated.
