Ugh. Why can't I stop??? Why do I feel the need to tell him everything then push him and push him to the point of making him so annoyed. I'm not even sure what I want. I don't want this marriage but I don't want him to win. He says I ambush him every morning. I am constantly trying to have conversations with him. I can't stop myself. I am needy. I am clingy. I am all over the map. Why???? Why can't I just DB like I did over the summer. It was easier to detatch when I felt confident we would make it through this. As soon as that curve ball was thrown it's like I just deteriorated into this needy mess. I wish I just filed before he found a lawyer. I think he might screw me out of child support.

Last edited by mustardseed; 04/17/15 11:03 PM.
40s 2teens M14Y
BD-10/12/13 rec-1/14
BD2-5/14 rec2-9/14
EA disc-10/14 4/15-BD 3 and triangulation ensues
Served with D6/15 MS forced to leave7/15
D agreement signed 8/16 final 5/17