hold on! - 9

[u-turn]

Limbo - it seems that is where I am (by my own choice?).

I know this is not where I want to be and don't know how long I am going to accept it.

She is completely avoiding every problem in her life right not (at least externally). Maybe she sees the elephant - but the elephant is pushing me out of the room.

I think she is still working with OM - I believe the transition for her will be complete toward the end of May. He may be transitioning out next week or as late as the end of May. We have not talked about it so I don't know the "facts"

I don't know if this is a major step anyway. Sure it limits their contact, but will it really change anything - I don't know.

I did go to my second IC session - I hope this is a good fit for me. I talked again for almost the entire session without too much input from her. Made me think a lot about my confidence issues and where that comes from.

C seems to be pointing out that I have been treated like sh!t and it isn't my fault. That the way I have been showing my worth in my family and marriage (acts of service) did not drive her to have an A and understands my frustration by not being able to "fix" any of this. Nothing I didn't know though.