Another WW/WAW, Need Guidance

[JAS84]

A little more on my situation: While the first post indicates all of the "landmark" bad times of our entire relationship, there have been many good times as well. I have always been a "nice guy", soft-spoken and gentle, and a little bit clingy. She has always been strong-willed and independent.

At BD, I begged, pleaded, and tried to understand why. That's what led me to the writings I included in my first post.

I found out that she had first mentioned D to my SIL, over 2 years ago! Nothing was ever said to me, until a couple weeks before BD, when she said she wasn't happy, and that there was nothing I could do to fix it.

Speaking of fixing, during our post-BD conversation, she mentioned that she spent all this time trying to fix me, and that she lost herself in the process. In the same breath, though, she said she knows who she is, and what she wants, that she was hurt and angry, but not confused.

We have separated our assets, agreed upon co-parenting, and support $. She warned (similar to pre-BD) that there was a good chance we would not be able to work this out. I had hope the first time she said it, and I still have hope now.

I pray every night for God to take on our situation and guide us on our paths, not necessarily to lead us back to each other, but to lead us to happiness.