Hi Diana, just checking in to let you know I was thinking about you. Thanks for stopping by my thread and giving your support and insight.
My experience of NC at the beginning was that it felt like an abyss, where hopelessness dwelled.
You will find however that the time in between contact and NC and then again contact with your H will allow you to gain perspective and some short term peace to reflect and recover, to gain understanding, it will allow you to consolidate any changes you have made, make concrete some of your ideas about yourself and about him. It will bring reprieve. For me it gives me time to catch my breath.
Hold the faith Diana! As is often quoted here this is a marathon not a sprint,