Ok, just caught up on your thread. I have read a ton of threads very similar to yours and they all had one thing in common. Infidelity. Now I am not trying to just throw that out there at you blindly or trying to upset you or anything negative. Remember, just because you cannot find proof, doesnt mean it is not there. It just seems your W is distant with you one moment, then has second thoughts the next. She is not emotionally all there for you...but does not want to let you go just yet either. Plan A and Plan B. It is great you and your W seemed to reconnect some after your BD, but looking back does it not seem more like cake eating to you? She wants that friendship, and she wants that security your M offered. But she also seems to want something else and is not sharing any details of what that is.
I really do not have much to offer right now other than maybe treat this as if there was another person. As Starsky said, it changes the dynamics.
Me: 42 W: 32 Married 7 years together 8.5 S1: 7 S2:7 Bomb #1: 09-16-13 Recon #1: 11/13 A discovered 04-03-2014 W filed D 05-19-14 but never served me I filed D 12-02-2014 S 05-31-14 Divorced 5-19-16