Pyrite: Eye of the storm?

[Pyrite]

i am not in a good place today, not at all. No doubt it dismay poo coloured glasses, but everything I look at is tainted.

DR was depressing me. Apart from the tiny section on LRT, every other part of the book presumes at some point in the conversation that things aren't as dire as my situation.

I read some more old threads (not Newcomers) on here. 2 that come to mind:

1. open to reconciliation is not the same as waiting (for your spouse)

2. Don't let the spouse catch you DBing - they will likely consider it manipulative behaviour

1 was good, albeit depressing for me ATM.
2 - dont disagree at all. I have felt uncomfortable with this. manipulative behaviour is one thing i am trying to eradicate

I'm starting to project my depression onto real life issues . I am in the middle of custody negotiation. So far we are both in favour of 50/50. but relocation is a big issue.it is only a matter of time before W realises that it is only a problem assuming 50/50 custody. If she petitions for full custody, she will get it.

Statistical fact (here) only 15% of men have been awarded custody as "primary carer" in preference to the mother WHEN there has been an appeal by the man, AND these are almost all cases where the W has a record of dependence, psychological issues etc.

So i am thinking I will cave and move 2hrs from my work and family to maintain 50/50. I am even considering just letting her have full custody rather than fighting it. defeatist i know, but thats how I'm feeling.