On the brink, need a miracle

[Train]

Yeah, OG!!!!!!!!! Standing ovation from this peanut gallery!!!

You are doing it EXACTLY right. I firmly stand behind Starsky and his words of wisdom and experience on waiting until W asks THE question: "What will it take?" THAT is when you have some capital to spend. I am SO glad you seem mentally prepared for this because it's so easy to budge a little when we're still vulnerable and our XWASs start showing signs of coming around. And as someone who's had to tell my fear to get lost to be able to flex a muscle or two, please hear me when I say: DO NOT BUDGE in the beginning stages, once W asks what it will take. Decide what you need, and don't settle for less than NC and a complete, firm transparency plan: all usernames/passwords and detailed cell-phone bills sent to you, etc. To me, the first steps felt like the hardest because I felt like - get this - I was violating my H's privacy and treating him like a child. I am now a year into piecing my M back together, and I am SO thankful I listened faithfully to my "old faithfuls" here and stuck to my convictions. Because, if I'm being honest, the first steps in piecing are actually the EASIEST parts of piecing. It gets hard, so make sure you create yourself a solid foundation built on your strength, honor and resolve.

I'm so, so happy for you, no matter how things go, because you're rocking YOU. Don't stop. (Get it! Get it!) (Sorry. I just got excited and had an old-school clubbin' moment.)