New to this. Need support. Separated.

[PureHrt]

Thank you so much Cadet. I keep trying to remind myself that it is not hopeless. That miracles do occur. My heart aches for me and my child but also for my H. I know that should he ever 'come to' he will be devastated by the hurt he has caused. In fact, I believe that behaviour now is a combination of addiction/enjoyment and having let guilt eat him to the point of shutting down and needing in some ways to hurt me because he resents me. Does this make sense?

How does one do battle with sexual demons of another? I can't provide newness and excitement of a new relationship. He knows my body and how it works and all it's mysteries. LOL. How do you compete when over 40 if he shows up with someone who is toned and 28?

I just hurt to my core and feel like any sexual interactions he has reflects something I'm not. That they demean all that we have had.