Part 18 - Creeping onward

[edz]

Went out for a walk in the sunshine at lunchtime (just to the local shopping area - spending £1000s in my head on new sofas -- back to work this afternoon.

Didnt call, email or text w - just got on with the day.

She called 15 minutes ago asking could I help her out, s has got her to get a canvas for his wall there and she cant hang it (dont think she trusts fil and he's had a cold - besides I think she'd like it done before s leaves home to go to work and not at a jaunty angle).

Created a small dilemma, this *really* is w's responsibility I dont like doing things on the flat as its a symbol of us being apart (and I have my own place).

But, this is for s apart from being petty I dont feel refusing to do it would show she "fired" me as H and now she needs to do it, especially in the light of yesterdays discussions where I said I wanted to be there for her (NB in a relationship not as friend zone) and - importantly - she also said there's wine involved so I'm wondering is it also partially an excuse to bring me around there (probably not, she knows she doesnt need one unless its to excuse it to herself).

Anyway, overanalysis apart yes I'll do it, w has a damaged shoulder and chronic back pain and if she tries to do it may end up in hospital and its for s. My feelings on "her" flat need to be parked, if we reconcile it wont be this week, who knows if it will be this year (if at all) and it passes the "would I do this for a neighbour?" test (yes, definitely if there was wine )

Trying to adapt the responses to w's actions and comments and behaviours (while still keeping believe nothing said half of what's done) this is possibly fiddlier than before we started talking! (joke)

So off to the shops shortly for some bits and bobs then off to the flat. I am not expecting more deep conversation or anything else (beyond wonky walls and a glass of wine).

Update later.