So - just to follow up. The episode last night was really upsetting. D3 begged pleaded and sobbed for almost 15 minutes to go home with me and sit on my lap. Throughout, STBX sat by the side and doodled on his stupid phone. How I hate that phone - I think of the last two years when he was constantly on that thing and I realize how much of his time and energy must have been spent on swapping messages with his mistresses while I was in the room with him.....I've known this for months of course, but seeing him do it while D3 is having a meltdown clearly related to our situation really unearthed some anger. Right after BD, I asked him to refrain from texting and checking his phone when he is around me, and he did for about a month - but I guess it is just too irresistible.
Not to be outdone, after the pictures were taken, D7 started crying, hanging from my arm and telling me how much she was going to miss me.
I felt totally gutted when I left to go home and had nonstop nightmares all night.
