I think maybe I had to get mad because I'm learning to pay attention to my feelings. And if I hadn't gotten mad then I would have just said OK and let him take advantage of me again. But because I got mad this time, when I finally noticed it was a boundary issue for me, then I said no. And in the future maybe it will be easier for me to recognize boundary issues without getting mad. So that's growth, right?
And it really was a not very good day.
And I'm tired because I just tried to teach 6 first grade boys how to tie their shoes. And I don't think any of them learned. But I did succeed in teaching them all slip knots and square knots, and how to decide when to use each one. And also how to properly untie a knot, which none of them knew before.
I have to because I remember when I told my IC I didn't realize when I started feeling my emotions, there would be soooo many! And some weren't pleasant. I had been pretty numb for a long time.
You've received some great advice, you feel the anger for a reason. You figure out what the source is, you deal with it and let it go. Anger isn't good when we hold on to it and feed it and stroke it like a pet named Resentment.
It's going to take your H a while to realize that you're no longer going to take care of him. You were too good at your job.
Me 57/H 58 M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13
Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do. I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering. Caroline Myss
because I remember when I told my IC I didn't realize when I started feeling my emotions, there would be soooo many! And some weren't pleasant. I had been pretty numb for a long time.
