Zelda, you have been through a lot over the years...no question in mind. You are going though a $hit-storm right now. I have to ask if you have assured yourself Physical safety? It turns my stomach and boils my blood to hear about domestic violence, whether it is full blown or borderline..in my mind there is no difference and it is CROSSING THE LINE. Clearly you h needs help, but that us out of your hands, right? You can break this cycle and feeding whatever this thing that has grown. You have an opportunity to Free yourself of this.
