Thank you job, Georgiabelle and Bright, I know something will come along eventually. Unfortunately waiting for the perfect job is not an option, I have to find something, anything, to get some money coming in; I dont have many more weeks before the pot will be empty. Once I have got a wage coming in, then I will have the breathing space to find something I really want. The Bank of Mum is temporarily closed now both s are fine again and until I get a regular income.
Originally Posted By: BrightFuture
I also think that part of you being down is that the news about possible trouble in paradise gave you some hope. And now it looks like everything is the same and your h and ow are still together. You don’t really know what is going on over there. It might look good, but who knows. Give it some more time. I bet that this R is not going to last. Or, your h will be miserable. You just cannot replace a good thing with the bad thing and be happy about it.
Bright: you are right, I did start to have hope; hope that he was beginning to come to his senses and the knowledge that he was unhappy, as why should he be happy when he has caused my unhappiness. I agree, no one knows what is going on his head and behind closed doors. I also know I should stop myself from being drawn in everytime I hear things are not good with him.
I am happy that s21 has his own place, he is a young man and should be out having fun and enjoying his life, not stuck in the middle of his d and g/f.
Coming back here has been a big challenge and ask of myself i know, its giving myself time - patience has never been a strong point of mine - I am trying to put the focus back on me now my sx2 are fine again. Back to living day by day, being thankful for bedtime and few hours rest for the brain.
Thanks for all your comments and support - (((hugs)))
