You know, Mighty, when we are traveling through life trying to navigate its waters, we arent really paying attention to the swells and tides.

But when something this monumental happens, it tips the boat and gets our attention. We lose our footing. And for a long time, no matter how hard we try to right the boat, we cant.

It is because we have experienced something we have never experienced before. Something so catastrophic that we dont know how to get back on track.

It makes us question all that we thought we knew..about our spouse, our marriage and our view of the world.

When we look within, we have to harness the strength we sometimes didnt realize we had.

But it takes time to really get our mind around all that transpires. It makes us question our beliefs and our ability to see what is true.

While we are doing all of that..we have to mourn the end of our marriage and family as we knew it. We have to let go of the one person we thought we could count on most in this world.

How can we do that? How can we say goodbye to someone who has meant so much?

It is no wonder that it takes time to find our footing.

So, you questioning how he can not contact you is all part of that. While consciously you know the answer..that he is in crisis, subconsiously you are thinking, that doesnt go with what I knew to be true.

It is a process, this. Sometimes we want to rush it along. But the truth is that each and every part of this..the getting your mind around it, the mourning it and the accepting it are necessary to get you to the place that you will get to..and that is peace.

One of the best ways to get there..is to accept that some things are just beyond comprehension. This is one of them. We can get that they are sick, but, not how it really affects them.

You are sad. This is sad. It is sad for us and for our children. It isnt how we thought it was going to go. We have to right ourselves and navigate waters we didnt see coming.

We will. We do. It is a different life than the one we thought we were going to have for sure. But different isnt bad. Its just different.

I know you are going to have an amazing life, Mighty. I can feel it in you. I wish you could pass all of the crapppy stuff to get to it. But, then it isnt as sweet.