Thank you for your thoughts. I do realize I am not going to be very popular because of how I've behaved over the years and the damage I've done to my W and son. In fact I'm sure there are many that would like to see my W be done with me once and for all and I understand that.
Right now I feel I'm not deserving to have her back ever. Earlier today I became very convinced of that, then I start thinking I cant and don't want to lose her, she's the only one that could ever love someone as broken and messed up as I have been over the years. I feel like I'm on a roller coaster ride. Somedays I have hope for myself, and my marriage, some days I don't have any hope for either.
Thanks again for your insight.
SITCH Years of infidelity by me/H, working on perm change, DEC 2014 ILYBNILWY JAN 2105 OM JAN 2015 W says I plan to move out and file for D April 1, 2015 Dbing April 2015 H-39, W-37, M 18yrs, S-9
