Hi bright! Thanks! No, he didn't say what he wanted. No one gave him the opportunity to say anything! S18 hasn't spoken to him in several weeks. Maybe two months?? S18 does not call, respond, not text him, so I think xh saw him and wanted to chase him down to talk to him. S18 hasn't spoken to him since xh Made him late for school and xh called to tell him he was on xx street. The one w the house w HWW. S18 was mad! It's xh's way of letting him know he was. Back w HWW.
Ur- thank you, thank you. Mmmmmm... You get it. Ya just do.
2b- thanks. Friends at work bought me lunch and gave me a gift cert for a spa day! It was so nice & thoughtful. I love them. My mom wS here when I got home from work. She & s18 had made me a cake. Kids and I had cake and ice cream for dinner! S18 got me a bracelet & perfume. It was nice. My good friend called from another state and we chatted & laughed for awhile. So... It was quiet. Peaceful.... Positive.
Hi job! Thanks. Yeah... This is no joke. But.:. You know that. I was thinking how much time has passed while I have been on mental sabbatical. It's amazing that the world goes on without me! Who'd a thunk it?! But seriously, time has passed- and I have been still. Waiting. I'm not exactly even sure for what. It's unbelievable. Just unreal. So- bottom line- I've got to stop trying to unravel this. It ain't gonna happen regardless... And in the meantime, as I focus on untying the, inevitably impossible, tangled mess of a knot, everything around me continues on with life. And... So shall I.
After bd, I had lots of dreams about xh. For a long time- months- about the old xh. Same after nuke. This- the abandoning ship thing has changed my dreams. My dreams are now of the new xh. Ick.
His appearance last night rattled me a little. But you would never know it. I feel ok. I was actually in a fantastic mood today. Like I haven't felt in a VERY long time. Prebd! Still have a ghost hanging around, but didn't let it deter my happiness at all. But... It did get me thinking. You know... That part of me will probably never fully expire. But this is seriously the longest I have ever gone w/o contact. Ever. From his part especially.
I guess he remembers me telling him that it bothered me when he would contact me after nuke. To which he was astonished! (His astonishment to that made me astonished!) and I straight up told him no more communicado!!! Which he tried- and I denied. Sooooo... It's definitely different. It's good. But, of course, makes me wonder.../ but not for long. I kick myself to snap out of it. Stop looking backwards! Who cares! Ah well.
